TOL -- Thinking Out Loud.

"Do you think love is a cruel trick nature plays on us to create more screaming babies, or is it EVERYTHING?" -- Feast Of Love.

That movie is pretty sad and realistic. Anyways, summer's been fun so far! I've been out alot, I think. I'm super bored right now so I'm writing in here, and I'm usually lazy to update this. For some reason I started thinking about if any guy I somewhat "loved", loved me back. Or had feelings that could grow into love. WHAAAATEVAAAA.

Hahaha, I really think my past made me someone who really keeps their feelings on real check now. It's like, I'm super careful now or carefree, which is good yet bad. Or maybe I'm just super picky or too preoccupied enjoying life and caring about having fun and being busy? I seriously don't make sense right now.

Fuck this shit. Hahaha, okay a lil update these past couple of weeks....

Uhh, so last week I went to Las Vegas first and stayed at Ballys. Crappyass hotel! and then after one night, we drove to Grand Canyon, it took so damn long -- like 4 - 5 hours! and then went back to Vegas at 10. I got dropped off at Town Square mall to meet up with Clarissa and her fam. We watched that John Travolta Densel Washington movie. Kinda good but stupid plot. I stayed over with her over her casa, which was a lil akward to me at first. Haha I think 'cause I didn't know her fam so well and ish. HER MOM LIKES ME THO! HAHAHA. It was so cute, we were playing hide 'n seek with her lil cousins and went swimming. Then yeaaah went home on Tuesday night.

Wednesday was Janine's grad. Their graduation is so much more legit than Ranchos. Wtf like seriously I'm kinda jealous! Lol, so much better.. After we went to eat Sushi. Thursday was the 1st day of Student Achievement Leadership Camp. 45 of us stayed at this really pretty 4 bedroom, 3 bedroom beach house on Newport Beach. Shit was so nice! :) Liiiike, It was right on the sand and the water was literally a 2 min walk away. It was one of our students' mom's friend's beach house, and she was too generous enough to let us stay their for 2 nights -- for FREE. Wtf, I wouldn't let 45 strangers, the majority of them HIGHSCHOOL STUDENTS stay at my expensive beautiful beach house! 'Cause that house was kind of a disaster after. We cleaned tho, but STILL. Hahaha like seriously? I'm thankful tho so I should stop baggin'.

Anyways, It was pretty fun! Bike riding was so niceee, I really like it. I want a bike now but too bad my dad gave mines away. I want one of those nice beach cruisers. Ate @ BJ's, ate a bunch of unhealthy food -- UGH. Smores were the best.. :) There was a jazcuzzi in the beach house too so that was cool. Uhm, everything was greatttt. And we only had to pay $20 for camp!

Saturday was Pauls grad/Kiko's bday party. It was chill.. Kiko liked his MAMA$ freakdance present, I'm suuure HAHA. Sunday was Papa daaay. We ate @ freakin' Cosmo's burgers, wow. I wanted Corner Bakery, I woulda paid too. Had work from 1:30 - 9.

Monday Petra came over and she dyed my hair to an auburn brown. I really like it, but i'm thinking of making it a lil more red. And I dyed hers like dark brown. Today I had the car finally! Picked up Jane, went to VG to shop around... and put these sexy shoes @ reflection on hold. But I forgot it was on hold for only 2 hours and some bitch took my shoes when I came back with Nicole :( So now I might go to Montclair today to grab 'em because they have my size there. DAMNIT! Okay.. time to knock out.

P.S. AYE MAMI, YOU SEXY.